Thank you for bringing light to and opening the space for the conversation of addiction. Most everyone nowadays seems to be addicted to something or someone yet for too long it almost seemed taboo to have an honest discussion in an open format. I myself have been facilitating Kambo and Bufo sessions for the last 5 years when 11 months ago while by attempting to help a friend with his addiction, i reached down to pull him up and allowed myself to be pulled down with him. This was the beginning of a 7 month cycle where i burned EVERYTHING to the ground. Damaged relationships with those I Love the most and severely impacted my reputation as a credible, respected and sought after facilitator.
I have taken the last 100+ days to myself in virtually complete isolation from the outside world to focus on me. With the sole intention to get to the root core of where, why and how this ugly addiction resurfaced after having several years "clean-time." Through relentless intimate self-reflection and continuous ongoing self-excavation, I uncovered and healed deep unresolved trauma from childhood that was compartmentalized and locked away so deep that not even the medicines could touch it.
I am slowly but surely on firm footing and foundation re-introducing myself to the world. Through action and grace I pray that relationships may be healed and amends be made. If you or a loved one is struggling with addiction please ask for help and support. The more people involved, the stronger your support community, the better! I always considered myself a very strong "survivor." Too much pride to ask for or require help from a lot of people. Too much shame or guilt to open up to others or anyone to find out what I was really going through. It's ok to ask for and be helped. IT"S OK TO FEEL!!!!
When you feel it you can heal it. When you feel it you can name it, and when you can name it, you can choose what it is you are letting go of.
Tyler,
Thank you for bringing light to and opening the space for the conversation of addiction. Most everyone nowadays seems to be addicted to something or someone yet for too long it almost seemed taboo to have an honest discussion in an open format. I myself have been facilitating Kambo and Bufo sessions for the last 5 years when 11 months ago while by attempting to help a friend with his addiction, i reached down to pull him up and allowed myself to be pulled down with him. This was the beginning of a 7 month cycle where i burned EVERYTHING to the ground. Damaged relationships with those I Love the most and severely impacted my reputation as a credible, respected and sought after facilitator.
I have taken the last 100+ days to myself in virtually complete isolation from the outside world to focus on me. With the sole intention to get to the root core of where, why and how this ugly addiction resurfaced after having several years "clean-time." Through relentless intimate self-reflection and continuous ongoing self-excavation, I uncovered and healed deep unresolved trauma from childhood that was compartmentalized and locked away so deep that not even the medicines could touch it.
I am slowly but surely on firm footing and foundation re-introducing myself to the world. Through action and grace I pray that relationships may be healed and amends be made. If you or a loved one is struggling with addiction please ask for help and support. The more people involved, the stronger your support community, the better! I always considered myself a very strong "survivor." Too much pride to ask for or require help from a lot of people. Too much shame or guilt to open up to others or anyone to find out what I was really going through. It's ok to ask for and be helped. IT"S OK TO FEEL!!!!
When you feel it you can heal it. When you feel it you can name it, and when you can name it, you can choose what it is you are letting go of.
Namaste and may Peace be with you.
In Love,
1111_ryan_1111
Thank you for sharing - this comment just made my day!!